Still Hoping

Last year around this time I noticed my husband was not quite being himself. These days his health is up and down. This thing called heart failure is taking its toll on this family. My husband has always been a man that believes and thinks for himself. I understand him. I am just not sure if he understands how his decision not to be under the doctors care has affected us all.

This is one of the hardest things I have had to watch and explain to my children. The questions get harder to answer by the day. The boys love and look up to their father. They have their own concerns. But threw it all I can still see God. They believe God is able to do anything and understands that God has the last say over all of our lives.

I use to believe I had all the faith in the world. Don't get it wrong, I do believe in God and know that He has everything in control; but sometimes I just can't see my way through this situation. So I have to remind myself what the word of God says...[In everything give thanks for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you, All things work together for the good of them that love the lord, Unto him that is able to do exceeding and abundantly above all that we can think or ask, for we walk by faith and not by sight, the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty pulling down strong holds....God is in control and even if he does something other than what I think should happen, I will yet praise and stay the course with God. God is able.